Patience...

I am not very patient, and I know it. Not 5 minutes ago, I was bored from watching the start of a tennis match on TV so I walked down here. I'm not patient with people, and with other things too. But when I want to do something I want to do it well. I haven't opened my 'learn Dutch in 3 months' cassette yet. I still have to fill out an application to dance. I need to go on a diet, but I just ate some cake.
When I obsess over something (or someone) I really feel for it. I don't give up. I just forgot what I was going to say. I'm reading my Barbra Streisand biography. Its really interesting. When mum would talk about her before I became a fan, I thought the same thing you all thought when your reading this. But I was open to change, I was open to new music and it has been one of the best things ever. It has broadened my music choice, it has given me hope to go for my dream (to be a famous musical theater actress - or any actress for that matter. ) and it has told me that being different won't stop you from doing what you want. Example, Barbra Streisand was gawky, had a big nose, odd fashion, an over-the-top Brooklyn accent and was controlling. But she knew what she wanted to be, and she went for it. Isn't that something? It just shows that if you want something bad enough, it will happen. Watch this space.

Back to my 'patience' issue, I need coaching on how to be more patient. I fidget, think about the strangest things when I'm bored and even if I've worked to get somewhere so hard (eg. dance ensemble) when I'm doing it I get bored and just want to go home. If I want to be an actress, I will have to learn to be more patient.
All through last night, I had (and still have) the song 'I believe in love' from 'A star is born' (1976) in my head. Seriously, I remember waking up through the night twice, and having the phrases run through my head constantly. That doesn't usually happen.

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